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One of my friends passed away yesterday. It was unexpected and quick. An aneurysm. She was only 42 and a mother of two high school aged kids. A really great person.
She also happened to be one of the actors in my latest short film that I made last October. The first film I've made in 16 years.
The two latest films I made before that 16 year gap, also saw an actor from each pass away.
In other words, my three latest films have had an actor pass away. That's crazy.
I don't believe in the supernatural. I'm a highly skeptical person regarding that kind of stuff. And I know that this is really just me finding patterns. Especially since these deaths are not right after the films, but are in some cases, years later. Still, it's off putting to know that the last three films I've made, have had an actor from each pass. In this instance it's even a bit more freaky since my last film was about capturing souls on video tape (by stealing the likeness of a person) and she played the ghost.
Even more crazy is that 15 hours before she passed, she had updated her facebook profile picture to just an image of blackness. Which is not like her. It's usually a picture of her or her with someone. It was very unusual.
I wanted to talk about this stuff here, since none of you know her. These thoughts are weird and irrational on my part, and I don't want to bring them up to friends. Especially right now, with things being as sensitive as the are. But I just feel like I need to express them.
It gave me this weird idea for a new film where a guy intentionally casts people in his movies knowing one of them will die, but doesn't know who. Maybe there is even a gambling aspect to it among the people who know the results of his filmmaking. Again, stray thoughts in sad times lead to strange creative ideas.
Anyway, I'll miss her. She was really cool. But there is some part of me that is sort of hesitant to make another film. I was kind of planning to make one for thanksgiving this year. As last year's was Halloween oriented.
She also happened to be one of the actors in my latest short film that I made last October. The first film I've made in 16 years.
The two latest films I made before that 16 year gap, also saw an actor from each pass away.
In other words, my three latest films have had an actor pass away. That's crazy.
I don't believe in the supernatural. I'm a highly skeptical person regarding that kind of stuff. And I know that this is really just me finding patterns. Especially since these deaths are not right after the films, but are in some cases, years later. Still, it's off putting to know that the last three films I've made, have had an actor from each pass. In this instance it's even a bit more freaky since my last film was about capturing souls on video tape (by stealing the likeness of a person) and she played the ghost.
Even more crazy is that 15 hours before she passed, she had updated her facebook profile picture to just an image of blackness. Which is not like her. It's usually a picture of her or her with someone. It was very unusual.
I wanted to talk about this stuff here, since none of you know her. These thoughts are weird and irrational on my part, and I don't want to bring them up to friends. Especially right now, with things being as sensitive as the are. But I just feel like I need to express them.
It gave me this weird idea for a new film where a guy intentionally casts people in his movies knowing one of them will die, but doesn't know who. Maybe there is even a gambling aspect to it among the people who know the results of his filmmaking. Again, stray thoughts in sad times lead to strange creative ideas.
Anyway, I'll miss her. She was really cool. But there is some part of me that is sort of hesitant to make another film. I was kind of planning to make one for thanksgiving this year. As last year's was Halloween oriented.