maranfilms
Veteran
and for the OP...lighten up on yourself. you're at an advantage, because you started trying film very young.
from the time i was 6 years old, i played drums. i learned on my own, and very quickly. i started my first band when i was 11, i was playing shows for friends at age 14, i was playing 18 and over bars when i was 16, i recorded albums, i toured, and i did it professionally until i was 30. i never made it big, but i got close. but i quit for the same reason...i felt beaten down, rejected, underappreciated. but it was the best decision i have ever made. i got married, i have a daughter, and another daughter due any minute now, and i turned to making films in that time.
Damn Chris, this is moreless my life story as well. The funny thing is the time frame is pretty much the same too. I did keep all my gear for my kids, so if they have an interest to pick up music they won't have to beg steal and borrow like I did to get a decent guitar and amp.