What if the only one who watches your films are just you?

[Zachadoodle]

I've been dealing with a dark thought for quite a while. I think someone who has life experience could help me with this issue. Apparently, I got thinking about if I finally make my break as a filmmaker being 60 years old. While I'm 60 I go to the theater to see my first film, yet this time there is no one around but just me. The thought felt very painfully isolating to me, since I'm nowhere near my friends or family in this scenario, but just being an old man watching his own films. Just me and strangers, or an empty movie theater where I'm the only one in it; alone.

Did you all ever deal with this? How can you like making movies if there is no family or friends around?

 

[NorBro]

It's a real thought and most definitely a possibility for you, for anyone.

Most people are worried about dying alone - regardless of their profession - but the above happens, man.

I specifically see it in video games where people pour their heart and soul into something, and it just doesn't work out.

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I can't imagine how that feels and I've never had such big dreams - but filmmakers, musicians, artists, creatives fail, and they fail in different ways.

Your brain will change over the next 20-30-40 years, and you may not feel the same, strongly, about the above scenario as you do now.

Believe it or not, you might just be happy to be alive at 60 and will enjoy the peace and quiet while watching your work on the big screen, strangers or no strangers.

 

[scorsesefan]

I've been dealing with a dark thought for quite a while. I think someone who has life experience could help me with this issue. Apparently, I got thinking about if I finally make my break as a filmmaker being 60 years old. While I'm 60 I go to the theater to see my first film, yet this time there is no one around but just me. The thought felt very painfully isolating to me, since I'm nowhere near my friends or family in this scenario, but just being an old man watching his own films. Just me and strangers, or an empty movie theater where I'm the only one in it; alone.

Did you all ever deal with this? How can you like making movies if there is no family and friends around?

AFAIK my films have been seen by hundreds of thousands of people (featured on Amazon) and by an audience of 2 or 3 in a theater. I'd be lying if I said I prefer the latter, but for me the process of making a film (in my case documentary) is the part I enjoy the most.